Maaf~ Esmosi

Shock berat waktu tau ternyata kelakuan nya masih sama kaya yang dulu. Gu kira dengan berjalannya waktu semua bisa berubah jadi lebih baik. Tapi, udah hampir 3 tahun kenal masih aja sifat nya kaya gitu. Gak abis pikir, kalo ternyata ada orang yang bisa kejem kaya gitu. Gu yang cuma jadi temen aja risih, ilfeel. Kok bisa gu punya temen kaya gitu. Nyesek sendiri jadinya. Satu geng kelakuannya sama aja. Gaya doang yang dipentingin, hatinya dikemanain woy!!!  Dipikir manusia itu boneka? yang bisa dimainin kalo lagi kita pengen, trus dibuang gitu aja kalo uda bosen? Iya, kaya gitu? Otaknya kemana? Taroo dengkul ya?? --` pffff

Mempermainkan hati cuma demi sebuah status.
Close and Open door to door in awhile. How could you do that !! HAAAHH!!!

YUI ~ FIGHT

Yui Yoshioka~ FIGHT !

I <3 IT !

Romaji
egaku yume ga subete kanau wake nai kedo
anata datte wakat te iru hazu yo
koware sou na sora datte
atashi ha ukeireru kara
daijoubu yo yasashii uso otona ni nari tai

ganbare ganbare inochi moyashi te
tsuduku genjitsu iki te yuku
ganbare ganbare kagiri aru hibi ni ?
hana o sakaseru

kibou no saki ni aru akogare ni te o nobase ba
ashita datte tesaguri mitsukeru yo
chiri yuku kara utsukushii toiu
imi ga wakat te ki ta
gomen ne mousukoshi otona ni naru kara

ganbare ganbare kachimake datte
hontouha daiji na koto na n da ne
ganbare ganbare sou sa jinsei ha hikikaese nai

itsuka furikaeru toki
kyou no waka kari shi hi ga
kitto natsukashiku naru kara

ganbare ganbare inochi moyashi te
tsuduku genjitsu iki te yuku
ganbare ganbare kagiri aru hibi ni ?
hana o sakaseru hana o sakaseru 

ENGLISH TRANSLATION

All the dreams that are lined out won't necessarily come true, but

even you should know this
Because even the sky that looks like it's about to break
is something that I have accepted
It's okay　A kind lie　I want to grow up

Do your best, do your best　Set your life on fire
Keep on living in the reality that is still going on
Do your best, do your best　During those days that are limited...
Make flowers bloom

If you stretch your hand out to the aspirations that lay beyond hope
then tomorrow, fumble around and you'll find them
I've come to understand what they mean
when they say that because it is fleeting, it's beautiful
I'm sorry　Just a little bit more　I'll grow up

Do your best, do your best　Winning and losing are
actually important things aren't they
Do your best, do your best　That's right, life isn't something you can do over

Because when sometime later you look back
the "younger days" of today will
certainly become something reminiscent

Do your best, do your best　Set your life on fire
Keep on living in the reality that is still going on
Do your best, do your best　During those days that are limited...
Make flowers bloom　Make flowers bloom 

 

  

Buat yang pengen dengerin lagunya bisa klik di

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGNvPWFbZPQ :)

 

 

Lets do our the best for our future. Always fight and don't ever give up. Remember your dreams and the spirit will carry on ;)

I love this song. When i was in blue, i often play this song. It give some spirit to me for FIGHT and DO IT NOW

Tangisan untuk sebuah permintaan

Ketika masih kecil, aku suka berlari. Ketika aku diberi sesuatu entah itu permen atau boneka, aku berteriak kencang – senang kegirangan. Ketika aku menginginkan sesuatu aku menangis, meraung-raung sampai aku mendapatkannya. Tapi, tidak ketika aku mulai beranjak dewasa … Semuanya berubah. Dan ini lah awal cerita dari semuanya .

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Saat itu awan begitu gelap, terik mentari tertutup olehnya. “Aroma hujan.” gumam ku. Tetes air hujan perlahan mulai turun. Hanya berselang beberapa menit saja, tetes air itu telah membasahi bumi. Genangan air dimana-mana, jalanan berlubang sekarang penuh dengan air. Mobil-mobil berseliweran, beberapa ada yang terperosok ke dalam lubang-lubang besar itu. Air menciprat kemana-mana, pedagang asongan di pinggir jalan murka seketika, memaki sambil menyumpahi pengendara mobil yang telah mengotori dagangannya karena cipratan ban besar nya itu. Pemandangan itu seringkali aku temui ketika sepulang sekolah, lebih tepatnya ketika musim hujan tiba. Jarak antara sekolah dengan rumah yang hanya sepelemparan batu menjadikan aku pejalan kaki yang handal. Handal karena sudah hampir 2 tahun lebih aku seperti ini, berangkat dan pulang dengan berjalan kaki. Tak ada 5 menit aku sampai di rumah. “Bundaaa, nadya pulang.” Ujarku sambil menaruh sepatu ke rak dengan kaos kaki yang tak dimasukan kedalamnya. “Eh, anak bunda sudah pulang. Ayo ganti baju. Terus solat, abis solat langsung makan ya sayang.” Bunda berjalan kea rah pintu, dengan celemek yang masih melekat dipakaian, mencium keningku sambil mengusap-usap rambut. “Siap bunda.” Aku langsung masuk ke kamar, melempar task e atas kasur, lalu ganti baju. Menguakkan seluruh isi task e atas meja belajar. Kamar yang tadinya rapi bersih kini berubah layaknya kapal pecah. Aku bukan tipe orang yang menomorsatukan kerapian, tak peduli seberantakan apapun kamar ini. Aku tetap menjadikannya tempat favorit nomor satu di rumah ini. Bunda sering sekali marah, menasehati agar aku belajar displin untuk merapikan tempat tidur. Tapi, kebiasaan yang sudah melekat memang sulit dihilangkan

“Bunda masak apa hari ini?”tanyaku sambil mengambil sendok dan piring “tumis kangkung sama ayam semur sayang. “asiiik, bunda emang paling tau makanan kesukaannya nadya.”sontak aku langsung membuka tudung saji  hendak mengambil lauk. “Loh, kok tumisnya gak ada udang nya bunda? “Iya, sayang tadi bunda tidak beli. Mbok inah gak bawa udang hari ini.” “ Yaaaaaaaaaah, bunda gimana sih. Nadya kan paling gak suka kalo tumisnya ga ada udangnya. Nadya gamau makan ah!” “Sayang, gak boleh gitu dong, bunda udah capek-capek masak masa nadya gamau maakan sih? Lagipula masih ada semur ayamnya kan?” Pokoknya nadya gamau makan kalo ga ada udang. Titik! “ aduh., lagi pada rebut apa sih. Dari luar sampe kedengeran tuh.” Papah berjalan dari arah pintu sambil membawa tas dan berkas-berkas kantor. “Itu pah, nadya gamau makan gara-gara bunda gak kasih udang ditumisan kangkungnya. “nadya, sayang gak boleh marah-marah gitu dong sama bunda. Kan kasian bunda, baru pulang langsung masak.” Nadya ga mau tau pokoknya tumisnya harus ada udangnya! “yaudahlah bun, beli di depan saja, Anak itu mana mungkin mau makan kalau yang diinginkan belum dituruti” ayah menyela sambil mengambil air, meneguk tetes demi tetes air minum.



 to be continue

Special Sixten

Today is Saturday exactly on 29th September 2012. Nothing special for some people, but it’s a special day for me.
A long time ago, in somewhere I didn’t knew, there was a woman who has given birth to a girl. She is so cute and look pretty as like her mom. Her mom named the baby *******. Slow but sure the baby grow to be adult, and now she is typing something about her 16th   muehehe.
I’m so glad today. Everybody send a birthday greetings for me, and the other have direct greets. I feel like a special person for everybody who around me when they say “HAPPY BIRTHDAY ****”. I’m thankful to God, for all of he have given for me. I still remember when this morning I woke up at 03.00 a.m without ALARM. So proud of that. Once in a blue moon I can woke up in the morning without alarm’s bell --` I know, that it’s the special gift from God. He rouse me in the morning because He know that today is my birthday. And I must to do the best and better again in my 16th  when I woke up, I didn’t feel sleepy like I do before. Keen is in my soul now !! I prayed hajat’s prayer first before I take shubuh prayer. I prayed and told anything to Allah. I cried when I pray, I cried when I’m aware what have I done in my 15th, I have waste my time for something not important, I have forgotten about the reason why I was born, I often grouse to Allah, whereas Allah always love and give all I need. But I still in the dark. Forgot it…
And now, I’m awake in the infinite cold. I wanna be new, be better, be my self  I don’t wanna sad because of the negative thinking. I don’t wanna  worse of a negative thinking. When someone who I want the most to say “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” to me didn’t give it, I will say to myself “Well, maybe he is so busy and didn’t remember me.” And also I said “well, maybe God know that its better if he didn’t say anything for me because He know I will dependent my self in him. Whereas I know that “It is not good for human to dependent herself in someone, except Allah.”
For my 16th I hope… that I will be a better student, be a good muslimah,  and be a good girl for my mom and my dad. I just wanna say thankyou for my mom who already gave me all of the things that I need, all of her time, all of her affection. Ohhh,moommm. I love you so much. You should know mom, your girl is going to be adult now !!   and dad, I also want to say Thankyou for everything that you have done for me, for your motivation, your suggestion, and else. I’m also apologize for all of mistake that I’ve done  I knew, I often have quarrel with you of late, I’m so sorry dad. But, I’m not sure what the words which I have said  I just want you to know, that I have a dream for my future, I want to arrange my future by myself. There are so many dreams in my mind dad :’’ I want to realize that. I want to be a good girl for the fellow depend on my dream, my hope, my wish.
I didn’t forget about my friends. I’m also thankful for anything that they have given for me :’) I’m so happy for being her buddy  I can’t pretend the feeling for  love  you so guys :* You are always in my side in everytime. When I was sad, when I was happy you always there, always listening my problem, understanding my self, and love the way I am :’)
At last, I want to say thanks and I also apologize for someone who I can’t tell what is h** name. you are so special and always be special for me. Even though we already desperate and ummm, miss contact   I still remember when you say “Watashiwa anata o aishite. Watashiwa ki ni. Sheisin no. Anata mo shinai ai, watashi no sukidesu ka? Kokoro o kemete?” Don’t you want to know my answer? … oh, kaaa you are baka. You should aware that ** already left with the other. You should forget ** ka !!! paaakkkkk. Ohhh, what a pity am I  . I always pretending my feeling, I never told what I want to tell. And now, its too late to ….
Ahhh, just forget it. I should be happy. THIS IS MY 16TH BIRTHDAY
I’M SO THANKFUL ALLAH
That’s all. Thank you. Hahahah


Ka, 29th September in Cloud of bedroom