Special Sixten

Today is Saturday exactly on 29th September 2012. Nothing special for some people, but it’s a special day for me.
A long time ago, in somewhere I didn’t knew, there was a woman who has given birth to a girl. She is so cute and look pretty as like her mom. Her mom named the baby *******. Slow but sure the baby grow to be adult, and now she is typing something about her 16th   muehehe.
I’m so glad today. Everybody send a birthday greetings for me, and the other have direct greets. I feel like a special person for everybody who around me when they say “HAPPY BIRTHDAY ****”. I’m thankful to God, for all of he have given for me. I still remember when this morning I woke up at 03.00 a.m without ALARM. So proud of that. Once in a blue moon I can woke up in the morning without alarm’s bell --` I know, that it’s the special gift from God. He rouse me in the morning because He know that today is my birthday. And I must to do the best and better again in my 16th  when I woke up, I didn’t feel sleepy like I do before. Keen is in my soul now !! I prayed hajat’s prayer first before I take shubuh prayer. I prayed and told anything to Allah. I cried when I pray, I cried when I’m aware what have I done in my 15th, I have waste my time for something not important, I have forgotten about the reason why I was born, I often grouse to Allah, whereas Allah always love and give all I need. But I still in the dark. Forgot it…
And now, I’m awake in the infinite cold. I wanna be new, be better, be my self  I don’t wanna sad because of the negative thinking. I don’t wanna  worse of a negative thinking. When someone who I want the most to say “HAPPY BIRTHDAY” to me didn’t give it, I will say to myself “Well, maybe he is so busy and didn’t remember me.” And also I said “well, maybe God know that its better if he didn’t say anything for me because He know I will dependent my self in him. Whereas I know that “It is not good for human to dependent herself in someone, except Allah.”
For my 16th I hope… that I will be a better student, be a good muslimah,  and be a good girl for my mom and my dad. I just wanna say thankyou for my mom who already gave me all of the things that I need, all of her time, all of her affection. Ohhh,moommm. I love you so much. You should know mom, your girl is going to be adult now !!   and dad, I also want to say Thankyou for everything that you have done for me, for your motivation, your suggestion, and else. I’m also apologize for all of mistake that I’ve done  I knew, I often have quarrel with you of late, I’m so sorry dad. But, I’m not sure what the words which I have said  I just want you to know, that I have a dream for my future, I want to arrange my future by myself. There are so many dreams in my mind dad :’’ I want to realize that. I want to be a good girl for the fellow depend on my dream, my hope, my wish.
I didn’t forget about my friends. I’m also thankful for anything that they have given for me :’) I’m so happy for being her buddy  I can’t pretend the feeling for  love  you so guys :* You are always in my side in everytime. When I was sad, when I was happy you always there, always listening my problem, understanding my self, and love the way I am :’)
At last, I want to say thanks and I also apologize for someone who I can’t tell what is h** name. you are so special and always be special for me. Even though we already desperate and ummm, miss contact   I still remember when you say “Watashiwa anata o aishite. Watashiwa ki ni. Sheisin no. Anata mo shinai ai, watashi no sukidesu ka? Kokoro o kemete?” Don’t you want to know my answer? … oh, kaaa you are baka. You should aware that ** already left with the other. You should forget ** ka !!! paaakkkkk. Ohhh, what a pity am I  . I always pretending my feeling, I never told what I want to tell. And now, its too late to ….
Ahhh, just forget it. I should be happy. THIS IS MY 16TH BIRTHDAY
I’M SO THANKFUL ALLAH
That’s all. Thank you. Hahahah


Ka, 29th September in Cloud of bedroom